pioneers of ourselves

Radical Honesty Coloring Book

Shameless Hussie #18

I AM LOVED : I have been surrounded by insecure love, fake people, situations that have to be forced because there isn’t instantaneous soul connections or the bond of having ridden the waves of ugliness and beauty – the history of years to support the friendship; and, I arrive in a house filled with love for my very being, dogs trampling over each other to lick my hands and babies […]

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Shameless Hussie #17

WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE? He has always been a hapless dreamer: bouncing after fairytales and pursuing fantasies of passion; selling freshly baked bread at the park; traversing the countryside playing songs to the world while living out of his car; falling madly in love and winding his way to Brooklyn; flying to New Zealand to explore the wild beauty for a month; and questioning his own privilege […]

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Shameless Hussie #16

I WANT TO CONTROL EVERYTHING : We take walks out into nature to remind ourselves that we can be calm in the face of insurmountable chaos. The trees sit in quiet majesty and we can laugh at all of the tragedy that troubles our souls. There are all of these people that we cling to as we feel increasingly more desperate and scared of the unknown. “Why are you doing […]

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Shameless Hussie #15

I BELIEVE IN MAGIC : Whimsy comes along for the ride, offering up suggestions like, “You should go to Loveland, Colorado! That sounds like fun!” And I drive out of my way because I am an explorer and I believe that magic is real. Thoughts comes to us as inspirations for future exploits: magical possibilities. We can tell when we are supposed to do something or when we are meant […]

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Shameless Hussie #14

THE WORLD DOESN’T STOP FOR YOUR HEART : I arrive at the homeless shelter for refugees seeking asylum in the United States with a cluelessness that comes with being born into white privilege. My white skin has afforded me the luxury of being naive. I arrive in the middle of the night to a situation that is completely unknown to me in El Paso, Texas. I had continued to second […]

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Shameless Hussie #13

I NEED TO SLOW DOWN :  My dad had to undergo heart surgery a few years ago, replacing a valve and inserting a pacemaker. Now he has to take medicine every day and he is more aware of his limits. He doesn’t want to risk it because it has forced him to see his mortality, to see his humanity, and to recognize that he has been doing too much. He […]

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Shameless Hussie #12

I LOVE MYSELF : It is so easy to get caught up in the validation of other humans and to desire that same affirmation from someone else every time that you come back; but, I can’t believe it, can’t see it, can’t know it unless I find it in myself first. I have to remember how much I love being by myself. I take myself out to the movies and […]

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Shameless Hussie #11

I WANT YOU TO HAVE AS MUCH LOVE AS YOU CAN GET: She is a pixie, adept in her gentle laughter and so easily taken by the thrill of being alive. I interpret it as being open to the universe and take it one step further in my mind by comparing myself to her openness. I have always been jealous of her and it has gotten in the way of […]

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Shameless Hussie #10

I NEED MY SPIRIT BACK : We have reconnected over lifetimes and are both in similar spaces in our lives; giving away all of our energy to toxic relationships and feeling the plug coming straight out of our spirit; slowly being sucked away by predators; unwilling to let us go; unwilling to unplug from our hearts. “I used to be happy,” is our mantra, and a slow realization that we […]

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Shameless Hussie #9

PROTECT YOURSELF: “We have had enough of ding dongs!” we say: a chorus of tired souls that have been through the fire too many times.  We have only ourselves to take care of and can let go of souls that have hurt us in the past, so we don’t perpetuate the same patterns for the rest of eternity. “I let it go too far,” she is telling me, reliving the […]

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